every second that goes by, i feel is just a waste of time if i'm not with you.

This room - it's not fun anymore.
Looking at it now, the images rush to my head. It's an unbearable feeling. When memories overwhelm you and you honestly aren't sure on how to react. But the thing that gets me most is that, everywhere I look is where you used to me. Is, where I want you to be. I can't make you be where I want you to be. I don't have magic powers. I don't have the ability to teleport you wherever I want you. I wish I could, but life isn't magic. I'm no superhero. I have to admit it's not easy being without you all the time. Cupid put me in this chokehold ; and because of it, I found myself falling in love with you. But, it's hard falling in love with someone who doesn't have much time. Time is everything, as I've written previously. It can heal and it can scar. It can make and break. It can go fast, it can go slow. I'm not the only one who realized it right?
I mean, I was heartbroken once. Time healed it. I fell in love with you - that took time. I grew up, and that also took time. I just wish you had the time - because you are everything to me.
You need to realize that. If home is where the heart is, then my home is where you are, but it's getting oh so hard to spend these days without my heart. It hasn't been long - I know that.
But, I still miss you. I always miss you.

my jelous heart honestly, can't take this.

So, who is she?
A long time friend, alright.
But, why would you act so differant with her?
Why would things be differant with me when you're with her?
They shouldn't be, so why are they?
Tell me the truth? Is there something you see in her?

Something beyond the friendship. Baby, it's easy to fall in love with you're best friend.

Believe me, I've been there one too many times.
You fall in love with the way they smile, the way they make you laugh, and the way they never judge you for anything.

There aren't alot of people out there, like that. Who will hold you in the dark times, when things don't go your way. Best friends do. All the time.

It's easy to fall for them. But, it's not a good idea to fall in love with them - while you're with someone else.

Baby, I'm not saying you're falling in love with her. I'm not saying anything actually.
Just make sure you let me know if something happens - I won't be mad.

I just want to let you know - I trust you. I trust you won't fall in love with someone else ..
besides me.
I just wish, instead of spending the night with her. You'd be right beside me.

as time goes on, love starts to show - chapter 2.

They exchanged glances more than a few times, and passed each other in the halls.
Never really thinking about the could be's. Not thinking that maybe if they took the time to talk to each other, they'd realize they need each other.
It was then when the miracle happened.
A friend of the girls, had an eye for him. We weren't sure where it came from, but he was the interesting boy from science class. There was something about him. The girl noticed it too. He was a puzzle, and these girls were ready to figure him out.
The girl not being scared of much, decided to go introduce herself. She asked the boy to hang out at lunch, and just chill with the girl and her friend. He thought that would be fun, and agreed.
It was a constant laughing fest between the 3. The girl looked at him again, and thought maybe he could be more than a friend. She thought about it more and more as the time went on.
The girl started developping feelings for the boy, as did her friend. She wasn't sure on what to do. The girl decided to let him know - if he didn't feel the same it wouldn't be that much of a big deal, at least he would know.
It was then, when things feel into place.
When the two humans who had no idea what to do with the word love.
Finally decided to try another shot at it.
and, trust me, this time.
There not letting this love go - because this one matters.

does my daddy love me? probably not.

Dear Father,
It's hard for me to write a letter to you, when I barely know who you are.
I have so many questions.
What's your name? What's your background? Who are you really?But, most importantly why did you leave? What made you realize it was better to leave?What went through your mind at that certain moment? But, the questions aren't my main concern.
The one thing I really want you to know about - Is me.
I'm Chloe. I'm 15 now. That's a long fucking time eh? Sure is.
I've really grown up. Really, I have.

You might have not been around, but want to know something funny?
I've probably learnt more things from you, then other people have from there fathers.
The biggest thing - People can randomly just walk out of your life - you might not have a choice.
They just get up and leave and you somehow have to be okay with it. Realize there not coming back, and keep living.
I just wanted to thank you dad, for that lesson.

Well, this was just a note to remind you.
I'm still living - not exactly the easiest life.
harder then you would ever think actually.
but, I'm living.
And I'll keep living - whether it's with you in it, or not.

the first part of a modern day fairytale.

" and they fall forever in love .. "


Page 1 -
We're at the begging of this fairytale.
Let's get the facts straight now.
We have our princess, not you're everday princess.
This princess didn't live in a castle, or not even a decent house.
She lived in a little apartment, on the corner or rose and chapel,
not the greatest area to live, but it's where she did.
This princess wasn't brought up with a brother and sister, and a father.
She grew up with her mother, and a half brother, who she considered her brother anyways.
He had always been there for her. Until, he moved out of course.
This princess never had it good with love, always messing it up, or saying something wrong, or not being able to say the right thing at the right time.
She had her times, she thought she'd wait 'till love found her.
Then, we have our prince,
This prince didn't have much, a family who had some problems with money,
and making friends was hard. Pretending he had all was easy; his decent house was given to his family, and things looked good, but it was a whole differant story. I mean ,b eing alone in a world, that can get so cold, is very hard.
He had no idea who he was, and he had no idea how to find himself.
Both were a little messed up in a way ; waiting for there love to come and show them the right direction.
Do they end up together?
Or not?
Is there more to this fairytale then just the characters?
Well, you'll have to wait and see.

i just want to make you proud, and i will.

I have to try this time.
I'm changing everything around, I promise.
I'm done falling.
I'm ready to get back to reality.
I'm coming, so look out.
I might be there faster then you think.
It's harder then it looks, but I'll try.
I'll try as hard as I possibly can.
I want you to be proud of me. I want you to trust me.
Believe me, I'm trying for you.
No one else.

finally, i can admit, that you were just a bad habit that i was ready to quit..

"Baby, can I show you something?"
"Of course, anything" He responded, with that perfect grin on his face.
I put our song on. The song that always reminds me, that I have one of the most amazing boy's in the world. You had me in your arms, starring at me like I was everything, more than everything. You starred at me like I was your whole life, all that really mattered. You kissed my forehead, and the words you said that night, have never left my head.
"Baby, look at me"
" Nooo." I responded with my voice he loved.
"Baby, look at me, in the eyes" He ordered.
It was then I looked at him, starred him right in the eyes, and realized I was taken.
Body and soul. They were both taken. This 14 year old boy had taken everything I had. my guards were let down, and I had no idea how to manage without him. He was my life now, whether I was ready to admit it or not.
" You are the more beautiful thing I have ever seen, you're eyes shine like the moon. You take me places, I never thought I could be. Baby, I don't lie. I never will. I love you so much, more then you could ever imagine. I won't ever leave you. I promise."
Then, all of a sudden another boy popped in my head, I went through my memories with him, and it was then when I finally realized my feelings had gone, away for him. I was happy.
I wasn't afraid to fall in love anymore, I wasn't scared of realizing I was in love with you.
I wasn't afraid to finally admit the obvious. I want you and nobody else.
If I can't have you, I don't want anyone else. Baby, you complete me.
I love you, always.