I wish I could find you again, I'd never let you go.

"Close your eyes, and dream good dreams."
I always believed you. Nothing would hurt me. You were beside me and with that, I knew I was protected. But, I knew when you left. I knew exactly when you turned out the light. I knew exactly when you had left the room. I was left, alone, in a room. And I was frightened.Suddendly,I remembered everything that could be lurking under my bed, or in my closet. I was more scared then anything.
And that's exactly what it feels like.
I feel like you came into my room, while I was crying and sang me that pretty lullaby that you always used to sing me, and talked to me for hours, until I feel asleep. But you stayed in the room, night after night, after night. As as soon as I got used to it, you never came. I used to sit in my room and wait for you to show up, and suddendly you didn't. I waited, and waited. Sang to myself, read myself stories, thought about why you'd leave. I didn't understand and it made no sense to me. Days went by, and you still never came. I haven't slept in days.
I'm still waiting for you. I can't sleep when you're not here.
Come back?

What a place.

It was one of those moments you know?
Where everything around you is so perfect, and you just want so badly to stech it into your mind and remember it forever.
But, I have this tendancy of not remembering things very well, so I didn't bother.
But, from what I remember this place was beautiful.
The smile, the laughter. It was one of the places where things really didn't matter.
It was just such a magical place, and I just wanted so much to stay there.
Yet home was far, and I missed it.
But, this was defintly a moment to remember.
Remember Forever .

Let's just say..

In love?

So many people seem to be in it.
So many people to lose it.
So many people trying to understand it.
So many people trying go to forget it.



and, being sixteen year old, this whole love thing has been defintly a roller coaster.
A roller coaster that isn't going to stop any time soon, I know that for sure.
But, I've got someone to hold on to now.
The last roller coaster we went on, was defintly an interesting ride.
But, it was one of the funniest rides of my life.
And I was wondering, only if it's okay.
Will you fall in love with me, just one more time?
I wanna go on your roller coaster again.
I wanna be in love with you again.



I think I already am...

Please join me..

There's been so many adventures lately,
I just hope you can join me in some of the ones that are yet to come.

A change.

"You are a beautiful girl, and I love everything about you."
It ran through my head about 1000 times, until it felt right.
You were always one to build a girl up, tell her things she wants to her, make her want to be yours. That was the tricky part of you, but I knew this game to well. So I played it safe, you used every word to try to real me in, like a fish, but I knew it. The bait looked fresh, something was was to unreal for me to go get. So I didn't. I resisted it, even if it did look good. So, you kept trying.
" You are beautiful"
" And I was stupid enough to let you go, but don't you get why I did it? I was too in love with you. It frightened me."
" When I hold you,my arms feel right you know? It's never felt like that."
Soon, I caved in.
I began to believe your pretty lies, and got myself tangled.
Yet, the one thing I had never thought about was ..maybe your pretty lies, were just pretty truths.
Maybe I just didn't want to believe you had changed.
and you still wanted me.

If only.

I've gotten so wrapped up in your words that not hearing them seems wrong.
It seems as if the world has turned the other way, and gravity keeps pulling me into the past,to the last time we talked.
I start to get scared, and I freak out.
Because you're not around.
I don't have the courage to come to tell you that I want you home.
When I attempt to, it's like my mouth is sewn shut, and nothing in my brain makes sense.
The word dictonary that my brain had developed begins to come to moosh, and nothing makes sense.
Words then become mumbles, and you don't really understand why I'm in such state of being.
If only you knew ..

Hear me out.

I'm sorry,for all the mistakes I haven't made yet.
I'm sorry,for all the rude comments I haven't said yet.
I'm sorry,for not being all you think I could be.

I'm sorry.