Everything's out of control.

Sometimes you can never really understand what's going on around you, like suddendly your on the fastest ride on at the town fair, and you just keep going on it, over and over again, and for some reason, your not bored, and even more so you arent sick. And you always got sick on that ride.
The fact was the emotion you felt was nothing you ever could even be bothered to explain. It was like you were upet, but happy. Angry, yet calm. It didn't make sense anymore. The lights were blurs now, and you are numb. And for some reason, you wish you felt anything but how you were feeling, because anything is better than nothing, right?