What was said, was true.

I said " I miss you. When are you coming home?"
You said " I'll be home as soon as I'm with you."

I have memory loss, but somehow I remember you.

I was going through my photo album earlier today, and I came across a picture of me and you, and the picture trigged the thought of the you, and the thought of you trigged memories. I rememebered everything.
I remembered the photobooth, and the smiling and the laughing. I rememebered your cute smile, and those dark brown eyes. I remember touring the mall over 100 times, not caring because we were together, and well that's all that mattered. I remember having talks with your sister, about music, and bands, about boys and toys.I remember you being shy about eating in front of me, because you thought I'd be disgusted. You were the cutest thing ever. I remember exploring abandon houses, and I remember lying down in the middle of the street starring at the stars together. I remember our first big fight, and I walked away and you came running back. I remember in geography class, always feeling vibrations in my pocket, knowing it was you, and always smiling when I looked at the text message and saw it was you .
I remember it was us agaisnt the world back then,
and I think it still is, we just haven't realized it yet.

I had you forever, or so I thought.

You don't know what you have 'till it's gone.
I learned that the hard way.

I'm so tongue tied in front of you, but tonight I'm not afraid.

"I said I'll always be here, even after we break up. But, I'm not anymore"
And, you left. With those words, you walked out of my life.
You left me to cry by myself. Cry for days and days, trying to figure out what I was suppose to do without you. You had been in my life for so long and without you, I'd be completely lost. Suddendly, I woke up.
It had been a dream. Just something I was worried about happening. It was unreal. I woke up, and sat there for 5 minutes, trying to figure out why that dream occured. I thought I was over you. You didn't matter anymore. I mean you don't. I am over you, and you don't matter. Maybe, I just lied to myself. But, you won't know that. There's been so many oppertunities for me to just let you go and leave you behind. Let both our worlds go back to the way it was when we didn't know each other, but I didn't want that. I want you in my life. Well, actually it's more like I need you. I need you you to teach me what I need to live my life. I can't do it on my own. I don't know how to. I rememeber live before you. Where drugs and alchol took away pain, and the little things that should've mattered alot, just didn't. Things didn't mean anything. People didn't mean anything. Until, you came along, and showed me right from wrong, and left from right. You taught me how to laugh, and how to smile. I mean, really laugh and really smile. They weren't fake like they had been for so long. They were real, and it felt good. You taught me how to care, taught me to trust again. You taught me how to live. I mean to you, the sky was whatever colour you wanted it to be, and I wanted to be able to do that to. But, all I could see was that plain old blue sky, but you gave me the courage to keep going, and trying to find all those other colours. And, because of you. I did.
I found every colour possible, and things seemed so unbelievably magical. You were magic. Like the magic that flows in a magical kingdom while a princess waits for her prince. I waited, and look who came to me. You did.
So, there's the story.
Just one last question.

Will you be my prince charming?
Please.

And you're still here after all this time.

You were always there.
From getting a scrapped knee,to having a broken heart.
You watched me go from boy to boy.You met them all. You liked certain ones and other ones not so much. You'd have differant thoughts about some of them, and of course you were right. Most of them were jackasses, as you had said. But, it's not just the boys you saw me go through. You saw me grow up. I remember playing princess on the playground, and fighting over my rugrats doll. Hiding in showers was like our getaway when our reality hit us so hard we cried. From grade 1 to grade 10, your family has been well interwined in mine. We're so immune to running to each other that these days it's just normal.
We're just one big family, and as our mothers say,
" It's us against the world, baby."

It's hard to explain this feeling of everything.

You're like my sheild from the world.
The little thing that keeps me closed off from everything I could be getting into.
You're my getaway when things are too much to handle, and I just can't take it anymore. I come to you, and you say something soft, and then suddendly things will be fine in time.
You're my teacher, always showing me what I can do, and how I can do it.
You're my best friend, I'm always having the time of my life when I'm with you.
You're my worst enemy, You're always telling me what I'm doing wrong.
You're my wrestler, I always try and tackle you to the ground.
You're my music, I hear your voice everywhere, and it comforts me.
You are .. my world.

We fell in love, as you fell apart.

We used to play tag me and you.
One day you were it, and you pinpointed everything about me, next day my turn and so on.
But, we got older, and the game changed.
Follow the leader became the newest trend. But, of course I was always the one getting followed, seeing as I was the oldest one, correct?
See, the grown up has to be the leader, because if the child is the leader, they'll do something stupid, and the grown up will have to follow.
But, after days and days, I got bored. But the thing is, you didn't stop.
I didn't want to play anymore, because having a replica of me, just wasn't fun anymore.
I walked around everywhere with you mimicing my every move. You spoke almost every word I spoke, and I just kept getting more furious with you. You needed to learn to be yourself, and not me. As time passed by, I changed. I decided to play a game with you to see if whatever way I change, you follow. I used to be confused and upset all the time. Things were just so complicated, and I felt that nothing would change. But I'm a teenager, what do you expect right?
As I grew up, you attempted to as well.I won the game.
But you can't just grow up. I'm older. I'll be out in the world before you are.
I found myself, but your so tangled up in being what you think you should be, that your too afraid to realize I want my best friend back. Leave the twin behind.