Abutor(Abuse)

You have to keep your head up high.
I know it hurts. I know you wanna break down and cry.
But you gotta stand up tall okay?
You need to hold on.
At least for me.

I love the way you lie.

"I'll do whatever it takes
When I'm with you, I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths .
There's nothing I wouldn't do for ya baby.
Nothing in this whole fucking world.
You better not forget that."

It's Alright.

Your just going to stand there and watch me burn?
That's alright
because I like the way it hurts.
Your just going to stand there and hear me cry?
That's alright
because I love the way you lie.

Abutor( Abuse)

“Can I hold your arm?” I ask, as I stumble.

The alcohol starts to kick in now, the world is spinning.

“ Uh, sure...Wanna just hold my hand?” you say, reaching to grasp mine.

This odd sensation starts to over come me at this moment.

Was that a spark? Is this possibly more then just friendship?

I stare you in the eyes, you look startled.

A quick smile starts to force onto my face, and we walk.

I turn to smile at you, and your smile somehow gives me shivers.

We both know what we feel, and we both know how wrong it is.

I felt the magic, something I had been missing from my old relationship.

I finally felt happy with myself, as if I was on top of the world.

It was nice. “You were nice.”

But it was wrong. “You had to be wrong.”

I let go, and walked away..

Because, as usual..

You were something I could only dream of having,

Something I could, would never get.

I ran now, so I wouldn’t get hurt.

I hope to god I didn’t make another mistake.

I can’t sit still.

It’s like smoking crack and trying to sleep.
little thoughts start to haunt me,

A sore pain taking over every little inch of my body.

I’m trying to get you out of the back of my head, i’m tossing and turning,
I’m trowing images back and forth throughout my mind of the fights,
The screaming clogs my eardrums, and i’m utterly disturbed.
My body shivers with the pain, the discomfort of laying down has came to an unreachable point.

I stand up.

My legs start to shake, and i struggle with movement.
Every step comes with the chance of my bones falling to pieces.

The dessert’s era starts to slowly adapt into my mouth, so i slowly make my way to the kitchen.
My throat burns, and my stomach aches.

 I never knew you could haunt me so bad.

I knew it was going to be lonely, after you left. I knew I’d feel empty.

It’s all things I knew I would I feel. 

But I didn’t know it’d hurt this bad.

The fire that burns within my chest, burns any emotion I start to have.

It burned my love for you, and burned the hope I had for myself.

So, is this what you wanted? To take someone, and burn them to death.

If that’s what you wanted, congratulations mission accomplished.

Adsuesco Assuesco Alienus (To Grow Accustomed To Somebody Else)

                     Just keep it quiet, keep it on the hush
                     And what we do, keep it just between us.

                           Are you going to kiss and tell?

                             Please, don't.