Your Uncalled For Smile, Sure Made It A Long Way.

I've recently come to the realization of what comfortability really is, and what it is to finally let go. I've finally figured out what I've wanted to do, and what people I want to share my life with.
I've sang songs with differant hearts, and let go of people I know I cannot have in my life anymore.
Comfortability is knowing you're dreams are alot closer then you think, the part of the world when you suddendly realize heavens on earth, not that place people start to believe we go when we die. It's that place where everything you ever wanted and ever dreamed is in your reach, or in your hands. Letting go, is harder than you could've imagined. It's trying to erase pictures. The ink gets smuched, but you know the picture so well you remeber. Whether it be good or bad memories. You still remember. I've come to the fact, the past is the past. You were a great starter point to the rest of my life, but I've come to the fact your the beginging. Beginging of what I like the call : my life. You started my story, my wonderful life. You put me onto this rollercoaster, a rollercoaster I personally wasn't ready for. But, what I've decided is that because of you, I learnt what it was like to be on my own. Thank you for that. You helped me, and I don't regret having you in my life. But, letting go was the best thing for me. I as well as others are proud of me.
I've came to realization of what I want to do is everything I can do. Everything I want to do for the rest of my life, is capable. It is accomplishable, and I know that. The people that hold my secrets, and hold my thoughts lately, I've come to realization I'm comfortable. I need who I'm with, and for what I like to believe they need me. I'm becoming the person I've dreamt of, that girl who hide away. She's coming, and she's not afraid, and I'm excited for all of this to come.
 Thank you once-upon-a-time-stranger, you made my life come true.

You're Just Like The Picture, Baby,

Winnie The Pooh: You think we can find it? Piglet: No, I think he's gone..forever.

Truth is:

I'm scared this is the end.
And to be honest, I wouldn't be able to deal with that.

The Modern Day Fairytale.

We'll have our own love story.
I'll scream, and yell at you ; and you'll scream and yell back.
I'll cry in my treehouse, and you'll come apologize, because you know you're the cause of my tears.
I'll call you at 2am in the morning, and you'll answer, because you love hearing my voice.
I'll always worry about other girls talking to you, and you'll hate every other boy I talk to.
As, as we grow older we'll runaway together.
I'm not sure where, but we'll just go.
As long as you're with me, I don't care where I am.

" It's love story,baby just say yes?"

Heart's Cannot Break. They Just Suffer Undescribable Pain.

You always see someone's true side when alcohol leaks through there veins There eyes become fuller, and there voice become's less shaky. You see them laugh, and shine as if every worry of there disappers. Lies become something that never exsisted, and the truth seems completely acceptable. --

When alcohol rushed through your veins, I finally saw the boy you had been dying to show me. The part that was completely and utterly in love with me. You spoke words to me, that I never thought you'd hear from a little boy like you. As you slowly spoke, I slowly began to melt.

" Baby, I never wanna live without you, I wish you understood this. I want to fall asleep to your voice, and your silly laugh, and wake up to your beautiful smile, and silly hair. I may be young, and stupid, and honestly I know the feeling where you can't trust someone. Baby, I've had that so many times. But, I want you, here with me. Forever. Baby, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. My heart is addicted to you. Baby, I hold it all when I hold you, don't you ever forget that."

Each one of your words, echoed my ear drums, blasting towards the pit of my stomach, forcing an unrealistic amount of butterflies,and then bolted straight to my heart. It went on overdrive, and I started to become nervous, and excited, and everything in my head started to blur. Every moment before you was erased, and my memory consisted of all times I spent with you. Baby, I believe you. Our life together will be the most magical thing. I promise.

we're too good for the world, my dear.

We walked through the winter wonderland that had just occrued the night before, our fingers wrapped together. We talked about the future, how the rest of our lives would revolve around each other. I'd hold onto your whispers, and your soft compliments everyday. You'd keep my sweet smile in your heart. Baby, we were meant to be together - this is to show everyone wrong.

you promised that you'd never leave. you lied.

If I could back to where we left off, I would finally see your blue eyes starring right back into mine.I'd watch you're smile, turn to a frown, and I'd watch as you slowly waved goodbye. I never wanted to say so many things to someone. I've held onto your memories for so long. Your singing, and your late night walks. You and I have held onto everything as long as we could, but I've learnt time takes away everything. In time, your memory has faded.I've come to the fact you're never coming home, it's time to close the doors and turn the lights off. Goodbye my former lover. It was nice while it lasted. But this, is the final goodbye.

Oh dear me, I live like them bubblebees - Josephs song.

i was born in the arms of bumblebees
flying around for honey, ever so sweet.
from flower to flower, i buzzed and i beeped,
searching for the flower that made my wings tingle
days went by,and the flowers became duller,
i was starting to believe all the beautiful flowers left this world for somewhere funner.
then one day i decided to fly far away, away from my home,and my fellow bee mates
and then i found her, that beautiful flower.
the pollin i got from her, by golly it made me shiver.
i found my home. the one flower i wanted all my honey to come from.



-- to be continuted.

You'll have a story to tell , my dear.

It was early morning, the city was dead. No lights, no noice. The dark sky was slowly evaporating into a nice shade of dark blue. Birds were flying in circles, and my heart was flying along with them. This was always my favorite time in the day. I would walk along the beach, and talk to god. Ask her the questions I always wondered during the day. This was the only moment god had time to talk to me. Not because I was a nobody but because no one ever thinks about talking to her at this hour. This was our moment as she liked to call it. We'd talk about the present, the past, and the future. She'd tell me about the hard times that was ahead of me, so I could stay strong. And about the beautiful times that were coming straight to me. She tell me everything. And I was more then happy to know she was there with me at all times during the day.

Confess all the truth.

You're a pretty little brunette bombshell.
With bright blue eyes that light up skies.

I'm that little short black haired nerd.
With the "emo"glasses and the cute black hat.

You're the girl all the boys want a chance with,
a mystery to solve.

I'm the boy no one really ever noticed,
a shy turtle.

You're the girl who would never pay attention to a little boy like me.
But, surprisingly,I'm the boy who got you.

Lucky you, more like lucky me.

Baby, there's no gravity to hold me down.

Ever since we've been together,I've felt like I was knocked out of the earths atmosphere, and I was roaming around the black ebis that we call space.You later joined me. We explored everywhere we could. Had dinner on venus, played golf on pluto, and watched a movie on mars. One day, we decided to go to the moon. We sat on the moon together, you kissed me as you ran your fingers through my hair. Before we knew it, our bodies took the place of our minds, and things became more beautiful then ever. You grabbed my hand and asked for permission to the key to my body. For the key to what I call my own little home. I whispered yes. I was ready to be taken away.You slowly lifted my shirt up, asking again if this was alright,and I agreeing as I previously had. Before I knew it, we were flesh on flesh, and my whole mind was fluttered with the way your body moved. The comfortablity level I was at was unbelieveable. This felt right, as if for some odd reason god planned it out this exact way. I was lost inside my own personal wonderland, feeling and seeing every attraction that filled your sweet body. I gave you myself that day baby.

God only know's how much I love you.

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends, free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been. My life was a storybook written by complete strangers, the plan was for me to figure out what it said. I never fully understood the meaning they wrote, it might as well have been giberish. Suddendly, you came along. You held my hand that one time, and suddendly all the gibberish became writting and I suddendly understood what the strangers had been trying to tell me.
" You'll fall in love with all your favorite people. You'll fall in love with the what ifs and the could bes. You'll fall in love with everything you wanted, and everything you needed. You'll fall in love with loving. Congradulations, you're life is beginning"