we'll be together, in time for the show.

I realized something today. Something I'm not sure I wanted to realize. Time is everything.Time heals, broken hearts, and paper cuts. Time changes people, and climate. Time makes, and breaks pretty much everything. I wasn't ready for that realization yet. I'm so sick of spending days and days thinking about you, and knowing the only thing I can do is wait. But, waiting gets boring, and I start to think of if . I start to wonder if this whole thing is worth my time. I would spend a lifetime, with you if I could. Even if I couldn't, if I could spend an hour of my time with you. ' Cause having any time with you, makes me happier then you could believe. Being with you, makes things all the better. If I could chose to spend 2 hours with someone, or chose 5 minutes with you, I'd pick you. Only because, I know those 5 minutes will replay in my head, over and over. That would be a good way to spend my time. So, with this. We have you and me, and we have time. Time can make us and break us, remember? But we shouldn't be scared. I know, with you I'm not. We can take our time with this - As long as, in time I get to be with you.

it's in your eyes, you're as happy as you'll ever be.

I never noticed the way you pay attention to me. Just me. Nothing else.
You looked me in the eyes, and starred right at me. It was then, right there, at that moment in time, I knew all my walls were broken. You got in. I don't know how you did it, cause those walls are harder then you think. But, you, you believed you could. You believed you could reach the moon, and look what you got? You got my heart. I hope that makes you feel proud, because it should. That things almost like glass you know, and now it's in the palm of your hand. But, for some reason, and what reason I'm not sure. I feel like it's safer with you, then has ever been.
You make me believe things will be alright, and not to be scared. You listen, even if the things I say don't make sence, and I'm stumbling over my words. I may act like an idiot in your presence, but it's because I don't want to say the wrong thing. I don't want this to fail. I want this to be something, something fun, and something amazing. I know it could be, I mean we just need to try. Try this; try us. If it doesn't work. It doesn't work. But, at least then we know, our love had a chance, and that chance didn't work. I won't have to live on the what-ifs. I mean, I might not be the perfect girl, or the best for you. But, right now I want you more then anything. I'm scared I'll never be enough to keep you around, but you know, I'm going to take the chance.
I'm ready to take the chance. We can work; let's just try. It's all we can do right now.

You come in 5's.

You have 5 smiles you know?
One when you're talking about your drums,
One when you're excited for something,
One when you think someone is being an idiot,
One when you know someone is being an idiot,
and, One when your trying to deny something.

You look at people 5 differant ways.
One when you think there stupid.
One when your playing around with them.
One when you idolize them,
One when you think there hot/pretty,
and One when your trying pretend that they don't mean anything to you.

AND..

You have one thing you're deadly afraid of : LOVE.

I spent all the money I had just to buy things to enterain us.

There are things in this world that I don't understand, like love, war and gravity.
But all of these remain mysteries,but one thing is for sure. you are worth living for.
Love, does it really make that much sence? No.

But, for some reason for you, things slowly add up.

It's the way you blush when your nervous, It's about how you laugh out of pity, cause let's be honest I'm not really that funny. It's those pills that you don't need to take, medicating perfecting , now that's a mistake. It's your finger and how I'm wrapped around it, It's your grace and how it keeps me wonded.

Remebering that night , it's amazing isn't it?
I still have a perfect vision.

The streets are dark, my pulse is flatline, as I'm running to you.
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do.

The air is thick with tension, much like when we are together.

If you need anything, just say the word, I mean anything.

So, why can't you see? You belong with me.

Oh, hey.
Heart hold up, your beating to fast and I can't keep track.
Oh hey.
Stomach, your not on a rollercoaster, cut the butterflies.
Oh hey,
Cheecks, quit smiling. It's really starting to hurt.
Oh no.
Heart, don't fall for him.
Oh, shoot , you already did.


Letter to heart -
Your a stupid dumbass you know?
Your best friend? You fall for your best friend.
Not like we haven't been through this before , right?
Plan is-
You tell boy, boy shoots you down, and it's back to normal.
Nope. It's not going according to plan.
It's differant this time around, this boy thinks maybe there's more.
More then just friendship, and fooling around.
There's more to it , that beats the eye.
Just don't fall to deep. That might be dangerous.

Sincerly, Your keeper.

Planes were invented for us.

I'm scared.
Scared of what you ask?
Scared of this. Scared you'll do exactly what he did. Scared of him telling you things.
It frightens me. He knew alot about me, a hell of a load. I don't want him to tell you how fucked up my life is, or how annoying I am. I want you to figure it out on your own. I want you to have your own thoughts about me, and not take his. I have to tell you now, I'm not who I was back when I was with him. God, I've changed. Me as a person. I still have problems, that's not what I'm saying. But , when I was with him. I wasn't ready to fall in love. I think we both just wanted to be in a relationship, so we pretended we loved each other. I guess that's what alot of kids do, because that's the only thing we want to know - all we want is love. I don't know what love is -so you can't trust me on that. I thought I have in the past, but it's all just pretending. So, I don't love you. I don't know if I will. But, I do like you. I like you alot. You always make me smile, and everytime I talk to you, I feel like everythings fine again. I don't expect this to be perfect, I know we're going to fight, and things might go wrong. But I want to try. I want to see what could happen if we tried. I know he's in our way, but what does he have on us? I might be his ex- girlfriend, I might be his ex-best friend, but what does that mean? He chose it to be the way it is. Not me. We lasted a while, but it didn't work out. That doesn't mean, me and you don't have a chance. We can try. If you want. We may be far away, but be with me, despite the distance.

I didn't think I knew all the chaos I was getting in.

He was everything to me.
If I smiled, he'd be smiling right back.
If I was crying, he'd cry along with me.
If I wanted to fight , he'd fight but, just for the fun of it.
I feel in love with him, a little more everyday, everytime I was in his arms, I felt more perfect.
Everytime I looked in his eyes, the more sure I was, I was in love with him.

But, all good things must come to end right? It's a shame it had to end, but I guess it was for the better.
We broke up, and walked our seperate ways. His voice is no longer the voice I hear everynight before I fall alseep.
He wasn't the first person I turned to, when something was wrong. I had to forget him.
I had to smash the picture in the frame, forget everything, and walk away.

I don't think about you, much anymore. A new boy has taken your place.
He's got the cutest smile, I've ever seen, and he always knows how to make me feel like I've something special. He's got me under his spell .
He's so much like you - a goofball , a crazy althelete, he knows everything about me, and everything about you. Yes, he's your best friend. I'm sorry.
He won't take your place.
Because, no matter what, no one can take the fact away - that I'm always going to miss you.