Can't say.

I just wish I could say it,
But I can't and I won't.
My lips are sealed.

Doctor please, I need help.

Doctor,
I can't this.
Your ex-rays must be wrong, this heart of mine is defiantly broken, and I'm finding it hard to breath.
I can't stand knowing he's not around anymore. I'm scared of the world without him. I sit in my house, and I'm afraid to get out.
I don't know what would happen if I left, cause he wouldn't be there anymore.
I cry myself to sleep, and I wake up crying cause he's not there anymore.
I don't wake up to him anymore.
The headache won't go away. It's as if everything he said to me before he left is stuck in my head and it just won't go away.
Doctor, what do I do?
I can't handle this.
I can't handle the love bug anymore.

Dear stranger..

Dear Stranger,
Hello my darling,I wonder if you remember my face.
I wonder if you remember everything we shared?
The walks in the park, the talks 'till dark,
Well, all I know of you now, is your living life without me now.
And I hope your happy.
Parts of me miss you, but parts of me are glad your gone.
Goodbye Stranger.

You can't do this.

You are a liar. A betrayer.
That's what you are, and for a very long time you will be that.
The truth was all I wanted. It was all I ever wanted.
But, no. You had been so tangled in your life of lies, that you thought this could just be part of the web. Part of the web you call home.
Your whole life was set with this terrible lies you had taught yourself to live by.
You lied about home, you lied about friends, you told people unnecessary stories.
You aren't what I thought you were.
I thought you were at least a friend.

Look back ;

Just a few things to live by.

1. Always smile.There's nothing to be afraid anymore.

2. Be honest, and don't hesitate on anything.

3. Don't let someone tell you , you're not beautiful. You are and you always will be.

You're life is just beginning, you ready for the ride.
Strap yourself in, and get ready.
It begins .. Now.

Sweet Sixteen.

I think this will be one of the best years of my life.

Every summer.

You always seem to be my main attraction in the summer heat.
And honestly, I hope you are ever summer.
I hope we fall in love every summer for the rest of my life.

I needed that.

Thank you.
I just wanted you to say it, just one last time.

Summer Romance.

Dear Boy,

Being in that place, I'm safe. I'm actually safe, as if walls were put up to make sure nothing came in. But there were no walls. Oxygen filled the air, and I could see everything's shadows. I looked up, and saw the biggest row of christmas lights I had ever seen. Well, they were stars, but they looked so much like christmas lights, and they were so pretty. I could feel your arms around me, as well as your eyes that starred right at me. You were shinning so bright that night. I never knew how safe I was with you. It was odd, but for some reason I enjoyed the feeling. Being safe, yet somewhat scared. You scare me, yet protect me. How does that work? I'm afraid of what I could say to you, afraid of what I might accidently do, and to be honest I'm scared of everything in between. I'm scared of being alone.. in the world without you, you know? I know I've done it. So it's not like I can't. Because I did do it, for 3 months. Each day brought me farther away from you, yet little did we know, each day brought me closer to now. To when things were amazing. Each summer we fall in love, and as the leaves fall off trees in the fall, so do our feelings for each other. But, throughout the year, you're face is the only thing that haunts me. Because you are home. You keep me wishing and hoping that things will be better and things will work out. You keep me dreaming until I know it's time to snap back into realitly.
You're everything. And I'm ready, and I'm holding on tight.
I'm ready to fall in love with you again,
I hope you are to.
Sincerly
Me.

Why?

Tell me why..
Your everything but mine?

It's HER birthday.

It's your ex girlfriends birthday today.
You didn't wish her happy birthday.
Instead you said.
" She's growing up. As am I. And, I guess this means. I need to let go of yesterday. She's my ex. She was my taken up time. But, I have way more time now. And every single minute of that time, I want to spend with you. Cause you're my future. You're my girlfriend now. And I don't want you to go away, again. I pushed you away last time, and I won't do it again."

I know you want me to want you I want to.

As I sat there with you,
the stars covered the night sky.
I was comforted by the fact you were back.
That we were together again.
It was so easy being with you that night, starring at the stars, talking about how it used to be. And how we came to this.
Suddendly, we decided to run. Just run anywhere.
We hit a path, a path I was totally unsure of.
And the darkness and surrounded us, frightened me.
You knew it. As you wrapped your arms around me it was there, when I was safe.
There were no scary monsters that could come out of the tree's, and there was nothing I was scared of hearing, because you'd scare them away.
Then, a bridge came.
And I'm frightened of going over bridges.
You held my hand,
and suddendly, as you did.
You starred me right in the eyes.
and said words I'll never forget.
" See, this is what we could've been."
And, suddendly, I knew my heart had been handed back to you.
And I need to be honest here, I wanted it back.
I wanted to throw you to the ground, and grab my heart right out of your hands.
But I didn't know how to.
And, I don't know if I ever will be.
You keep me safe, and smiling.
What am I suppose to do, when you go away?
You tell me.

I think you have to.

Your family loves me.
And your related to them, so I think it's kinda in your genes to love me.

The ugly truth.

You held my hand and whispered words I thought I'd never hear.
" See, this is what we could've been."

Let's just be honest.

Arms wrapped around me.
Stars shinned above me.
You brought out the best in me.

Time changes everything.

I don't know what I saw in you back then.
You're just another one of them.

Believers.

Noone believes me when I tell them that your insane.
Noone believes me when I tell them you were once the quiet one.
Noone believe me when I tell them, you've changed.

I know it's mean, but it's true.

I hope you jump off a cliff and die.
Well, not actually..
I just hope you get paralized for life.

That's odd.

You are a stranger now.
Why'd it take me so long to figure that out?

You and me.

We may have nothing to do,
but it's okay, cause I'm with you.

Well, this sucks.

Money.
It runs the world these days.

Imagination

I like my imagination.
It makes me believe in the toothfairy and santa clause.
I just wish my mom didn't tell me that they weren't real.

I liked pretending.
I still do.

Let's see.

Let's see what I'd be,
If I were something completely differant from what I'd used to be.

I see now.

I love that mirror of mine.
Suddendly, I'm seeing what everyone else does.
And she's beautiful.

Comin' Home.

Just a few more days 'till you come home.
and I just can't wait to see your face again.

You saved me.

I'm lost.
And insecure.
And drowning in my reality.
Thanks for saving me.

You put the sun to shame.

I've never met anyone who shines as bright as you.
And to be honest, I hope I never do.

You inspired me.

"You look like the girl from a movie I saw once."
I say to a girl I see sitting on the side of the street.
She was in torn up clothing, and her hair was a mess.
Although you might not be able to see past it, she looked intellegant.
Smart even. As I starred at her, once she had spoken these words.
She shinned brighter than any star I had ever seen.
" I am that girl in the movie. But, I think money and fame don't give you anything. I might live in rags, and I may not shower that often, but I can tell you now I'll never be happier than when I sit right here. You don't need money to find happiness. You can buy your happiness, or you can have it delievered to your soul. I find my happiness, and it might be on the street. But I have people who love me, and care for me. I gave the money I made in that movie to kids who need it. I know I could use it, but they are the future, and to help them get better, or to fufill one of there dreams makes me feel like I made a differance in this world. "
And, after I heard those words I realized.
She's gaven everything she has, yet is still happy.
That day I got hope, and faith.
And, whenever I see the brightest star in the sky I think of the lady I talked to that day.
That's her star. No, actually that's her.

I'm sorry.

I know it hurts,
but pain is beauty.
Remember?

Ballons?

I never thought much about ballons.
But, today I realized.
There somewhat like humans.
They get blown up, and shaped into an object and animal.
Then either it pops, and it dies instantly.
Or, it gets a small hole in it, and dies slowly.
Humans are exactly like that.
We are all born the same,
but then we all have differant personalitlies, and differant apperances.
and just like ballons.
We either die fast, or die slow.
But, we all have a life worth living.

Truth.

We've got the whole world figured out.
Or we think we do.

It had to come out some time.

I hate to keep telling you lies.
I just want you to be safe..
and mine.
That's the truth.

You can do it.

You can rock every stage in the world.
You've got believers, even if you don't believe.

I think this will work out perfectly.

New me.
New you.
New starting.
New end.
I like that plan.

It can be said.

You're beautiful, don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
But, maybe you should pop that zit on your nose.
I guess that's what you can say, when your best friends.

The best thing you've done.

Thanks for leaving for a while.
We needed time apart.
But, the only odd thing is :
I don't miss you.

I know you don't have the internet, but hopefully you see this.

Dear God,
Thanks for everything you're giving us.
I apperiate it.

Times change.

I remember life without you.
And I hated it.

Thanks.

You got me smiling again .
I didn't know someone could do that.
Thank you.

What was said, was true.

I said " I miss you. When are you coming home?"
You said " I'll be home as soon as I'm with you."

I have memory loss, but somehow I remember you.

I was going through my photo album earlier today, and I came across a picture of me and you, and the picture trigged the thought of the you, and the thought of you trigged memories. I rememebered everything.
I remembered the photobooth, and the smiling and the laughing. I rememebered your cute smile, and those dark brown eyes. I remember touring the mall over 100 times, not caring because we were together, and well that's all that mattered. I remember having talks with your sister, about music, and bands, about boys and toys.I remember you being shy about eating in front of me, because you thought I'd be disgusted. You were the cutest thing ever. I remember exploring abandon houses, and I remember lying down in the middle of the street starring at the stars together. I remember our first big fight, and I walked away and you came running back. I remember in geography class, always feeling vibrations in my pocket, knowing it was you, and always smiling when I looked at the text message and saw it was you .
I remember it was us agaisnt the world back then,
and I think it still is, we just haven't realized it yet.

I had you forever, or so I thought.

You don't know what you have 'till it's gone.
I learned that the hard way.

I'm so tongue tied in front of you, but tonight I'm not afraid.

"I said I'll always be here, even after we break up. But, I'm not anymore"
And, you left. With those words, you walked out of my life.
You left me to cry by myself. Cry for days and days, trying to figure out what I was suppose to do without you. You had been in my life for so long and without you, I'd be completely lost. Suddendly, I woke up.
It had been a dream. Just something I was worried about happening. It was unreal. I woke up, and sat there for 5 minutes, trying to figure out why that dream occured. I thought I was over you. You didn't matter anymore. I mean you don't. I am over you, and you don't matter. Maybe, I just lied to myself. But, you won't know that. There's been so many oppertunities for me to just let you go and leave you behind. Let both our worlds go back to the way it was when we didn't know each other, but I didn't want that. I want you in my life. Well, actually it's more like I need you. I need you you to teach me what I need to live my life. I can't do it on my own. I don't know how to. I rememeber live before you. Where drugs and alchol took away pain, and the little things that should've mattered alot, just didn't. Things didn't mean anything. People didn't mean anything. Until, you came along, and showed me right from wrong, and left from right. You taught me how to laugh, and how to smile. I mean, really laugh and really smile. They weren't fake like they had been for so long. They were real, and it felt good. You taught me how to care, taught me to trust again. You taught me how to live. I mean to you, the sky was whatever colour you wanted it to be, and I wanted to be able to do that to. But, all I could see was that plain old blue sky, but you gave me the courage to keep going, and trying to find all those other colours. And, because of you. I did.
I found every colour possible, and things seemed so unbelievably magical. You were magic. Like the magic that flows in a magical kingdom while a princess waits for her prince. I waited, and look who came to me. You did.
So, there's the story.
Just one last question.

Will you be my prince charming?
Please.

And you're still here after all this time.

You were always there.
From getting a scrapped knee,to having a broken heart.
You watched me go from boy to boy.You met them all. You liked certain ones and other ones not so much. You'd have differant thoughts about some of them, and of course you were right. Most of them were jackasses, as you had said. But, it's not just the boys you saw me go through. You saw me grow up. I remember playing princess on the playground, and fighting over my rugrats doll. Hiding in showers was like our getaway when our reality hit us so hard we cried. From grade 1 to grade 10, your family has been well interwined in mine. We're so immune to running to each other that these days it's just normal.
We're just one big family, and as our mothers say,
" It's us against the world, baby."

It's hard to explain this feeling of everything.

You're like my sheild from the world.
The little thing that keeps me closed off from everything I could be getting into.
You're my getaway when things are too much to handle, and I just can't take it anymore. I come to you, and you say something soft, and then suddendly things will be fine in time.
You're my teacher, always showing me what I can do, and how I can do it.
You're my best friend, I'm always having the time of my life when I'm with you.
You're my worst enemy, You're always telling me what I'm doing wrong.
You're my wrestler, I always try and tackle you to the ground.
You're my music, I hear your voice everywhere, and it comforts me.
You are .. my world.

We fell in love, as you fell apart.

We used to play tag me and you.
One day you were it, and you pinpointed everything about me, next day my turn and so on.
But, we got older, and the game changed.
Follow the leader became the newest trend. But, of course I was always the one getting followed, seeing as I was the oldest one, correct?
See, the grown up has to be the leader, because if the child is the leader, they'll do something stupid, and the grown up will have to follow.
But, after days and days, I got bored. But the thing is, you didn't stop.
I didn't want to play anymore, because having a replica of me, just wasn't fun anymore.
I walked around everywhere with you mimicing my every move. You spoke almost every word I spoke, and I just kept getting more furious with you. You needed to learn to be yourself, and not me. As time passed by, I changed. I decided to play a game with you to see if whatever way I change, you follow. I used to be confused and upset all the time. Things were just so complicated, and I felt that nothing would change. But I'm a teenager, what do you expect right?
As I grew up, you attempted to as well.I won the game.
But you can't just grow up. I'm older. I'll be out in the world before you are.
I found myself, but your so tangled up in being what you think you should be, that your too afraid to realize I want my best friend back. Leave the twin behind.